so out of it

Im so out of it.
I envy you.
The heart, the passion.
The light, your laugh.

The way you smile.

What I thought I needed I have.
What I know now, I laugh.

The time gone, the money spent.
How many wrongs came and went.

Often I tried but never won.
Often you cried, always undone.

The fear,the facts.
The here and now.

How I've gotten this far I wonder how.

Think back then.
Think back when.

20 years ago.
one more year to go.

Does it matter?
no limitations.
its all there.

The memories of the old brought back like the new.
From a simple memory reminding you.
I envy you.

the young.

There is still so much unknown.

Im so out of it.